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Psalm 73: 21- 28

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When my heart was grieved
    and my spirit embittered,
22 I was senseless and ignorant;
    I was a brute beast before you.

23 Yet I am always with you;
    you hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
    and afterward you will take me into glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
    And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
    but God is the strength of my heart
    and my portion forever.

27 Those who are far from you will perish;
    you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
28 But as for me, it is good to be near God.
    I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge;
    I will tell of all your deeds.

Have you ever had one of those days where you just wanted to have a party that celebrates your sad story?  Unfortunately, I had one today.

The life of prophets, disciples, and apostles during the time of written scripture can only be classified as an epic tragedy.  They heard messages, they asked questions, they followed, and were also wrought with anguish as the plan was not filled with joyous events.  No, it was filled with challenges and times which brought on disastrous consequences.  I am sure they were asking why are my enemies coming out on top?  Why are they the ones being rewarded?  How can following you Lord, be so hard?

As I sit here thinking of my day, I have come to the conclusion that the mountaintop is not where God wants us to live.  From this view we see everything so far away and feel the joy of being so close to God that nothing seems to matter.  I love this place.  Reality looks like small ants below, and each problem can be easily stepped on with limited effort.  If you haven’t been, spend extended time with fellow Christians and reading God’s word, and this is where you will easily climb.  

Currently, I am being brought off the mountain, and need to go down into the reality of the broken world full of confusion and chaos. This is where the good get limited perks, and the bad get what seems unjustified benefits.  

How do we stand by as followers of Christ and watch this happen?  How do we not get involved in righting wrongs and guiding the misguided?

I recently read a quote by Mother Teresa saying, “If you want to change the world, go home and love your family.”  Could it be that simple?

God doesn’t want us to get sucked in to pity parties, or righting wrongs, or proving points.  He wants us to love.  Love our families unconditionally, love our neighbors as we love ourselves, love everyone to show how much He loves us.

So, as I have “one of those days”, and start to replay the day in my mind with a sour face, I need to remember that sulking is not representing the love of Christ.  It is representing the self absorbed world of taking and not giving.  

The only right I have is accepting and giving what God has given me freely.  No strings, no games, no unexpected fine print.  He just loves me the way I am .  Broken and messy.

My reward is knowing I’m His, and will be with Him eternally.  This is the best benefit of my faithful walk. The only reward I should strive to achieve.  

Colossians 3: 23-24 

23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.