Who I am = Past + Mistakes

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Psalms 1: 1-3

Blessed is the one
    who does not walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take
    or sit in the company of mockers,
but whose delight is in the law of the Lord,
    and who meditates on his law day and night.
That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
    which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
    whatever they do prospers.

The past can haunt us like a unwanted visitor.  It lingers just waiting to remind us that it defines who we are.

My past mistakes at time taunt and seep into my thinking , then secretly alter my present day reality. This thinking puts me back to walking with the wicked, hands on my hips to sinners, and standing side by side with mockers.  I become my worst enemy and begin to judge the sin of others.

In times when discomfort of the unknown occur, my fear causes a tether to the past.  It only extends so far to my future decisions.  I will allow myself to link I’m making progress in letting go but that is a false narrative which can place me in the wrong place at the wrong time.  My world view narrowly encompasses a small glimmer of what God has in store.

2 Corinthians 5: 17-21 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. 18 All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; 19 that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. 20 Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, God making his appeal through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God. 21 For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

As God’s truth is revealed, we can see that we are a new creation.  The “comfortable and dependable” ideas we have about ourselves and our expectations of how we function in the world, seem to weight God’s new creation.  Focusing forward into the unknown can be accomplished.  Yet, completely shedding the second skin we have acquired that we think defines our identity, is utterly impossible with our own strength.  People in our lives only know us through the ‘old’ creation.  They allow us to maintain this fake appearance.  Our face value is often diminished due to our inability to rise to the new place of honor.

Philippians 2: 1-18 Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

Who, being in very nature God,
    did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
rather, he made himself nothing
    by taking the very nature of a servant,
    being made in human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a man,
    he humbled himself
    by becoming obedient to death—
        even death on a cross!

Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
    and gave him the name that is above every name,
10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
    in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11 and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord,
    to the glory of God the Father.

How do we become this creation in Christ?  Do we need to act differently?  Look differently?

To be united with Christ, we need to restore our hearts.  Allow Him to reveal the broken places and hurting pieces.  As He applies the ointment, we can begin to look outward to others.  Taking time to love the unlovable, forgive the unforgivable, and allow others to see what Christ does for us each day.

I am a sinner.  We are all sinners.  Messy, Confused, Hurting, and Selfish.  Yet, Christ sees each of us as a priceless masterpiece He created to fulfill His mission on earth.  He wants us to love like He loves.  Looking at each person as that creation and graciously caring for them.  As we reach out, He will direct our future to place us in situations where we are to show Christ’s love.

Soon enough, without even noticing the change, our appearance is new.  Our lives will change and our future sweeter than our human minds could imagine.

Maybe one day I will completely know this identity, but in God’s time.

Ephesians 5: 2 and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.


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2 thoughts on “Who I am = Past + Mistakes

  1. Maddox says:

    “The past can haunt us like an unwanted visitor”

    I love that. A lot of times we don’t know how to move on from our past. We dont necessarily have to forget it, but we’re expected not to live in it!

    Liked by 1 person

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